Many years ago, after Nashotah House decided it no longer required my unique outlook, I bought a book.(That’s my default reaction.)This book was on how to write killer cover letters. I don’t remember the title or the author, butI followed the advice, well, religiously. It got me nowhere.Business tricks, at least historically, don’t work in academia.Sitting at home, pondering my sins, I flipped to the chapter on advice to take if none of the rest of this was working for you.Here’s where the human side began to show through.Have you been eating onions or garlic before your interviews? it asked. Do you need to lose weight?Try dressing nicer.It occurred to me that the business world lacks the imagination required for denying jobs.And besides, who was getting any interviews before which I shouldn’t eat garlic?
Business advice is, in a word, shallow.It assumes that if you’ve got the goods there’s no reason you won’t get hired.Reality is a bit more complex than that.I often ponder how people simply go for what they want.They reach for the biggest piece without pondering the repercussions of their actions.I see it in my small world of publishing all the time.Those who are “hungry” (read “greedy”) succeed.Those who wait behind to help others simply can’t compete.So the cover letter book did get that part right.Is it possible, however, to devise a society where everyone fits?Not all are created equal, perhaps, but do we have to reward those who seem to care only for themselves?Let them eat garlic.
The cover letter book, in the end, never really did me any good.I found my way into publishing by being willing to aim low.I’ve written many cover letters since leaving Nashotah House, and only two ever led to a job.Those who work in business, what with their concerns about readers’ aromas and weights, seem never to have considered the intricacies of the intellectual job market.What strikes me as particularly odd is that there are plenty of smart people out there, and yet they haven’t organized to offer alternatives to the greed-based structure on which our work lives are based.They can’t, it seems, gaze beyond capitalism as a mechanism for helping individuals lead productive lives.Business operates on the principle of replaceable parts, many of which happen to be human.And even those who know how to write can’t hope to compete against those who prefer cogs that know to avoid onions.
Ritual, no matter what scientists say, is deeply woven into the fabric of human psyches.It may be either the warp or the weft, but it’s downright basic.I was reminded of this on my hurried and slow trip to San Diego yesterday.I always wear the same shirt when I fly to this conference.This isn’t superstition, but rather it’s a case of sticking with something that works.I don’t often wear turtlenecks, and one reason is that they seldom fit well.More years ago than I care to admit (I’m wearing the shirt in the photo below, which was taken at Nashotah House nearly two decades in the past) I found a navy blue turtleneck from Land’s End (this is not a sponsored post, although it probably should be) that works perfectly.Even today it fits snugly around the neck after hours of wear.Maybe ten years back I bought a black turtleneck from the same company and after pulling it over my head, it gaps something awful.I tend only to wear it around the house. The original still does the job.
I was ready to drive myself to the airport yesterday and I grabbed a quick lunch at home.Part of said lunch involved opening a ketchup bottle probably nearly as old as the shirt I was wearing.(I’m sure you can see where this is going.)I ended up looking like a murderer, which is not something you want to try to explain to a TSA agent.I quick threw said ritual shirt into the washer and the drier buzzed at the same time as my phone did for when I had to leave for my two-hour-ahead check-in.This remarkable shirt was dry and ready to serve.Maybe you can see now why I’m so ritualistic about clothes.I also opt-out of those Star Trek scanners at the airport.This means I get lots of governmental pat-downs.It feels more authentic when you have actual hands running down your body—at least it’s honest.
The TSA agent commented that you don’t see many turtlenecks these days.I explained that it’s good for flying because I’m always cold on planes.As this stranger’s hands were rubbing down my chest, I was wondering how many times this shirt has been felt up by the US government.It has no pockets to pick, and besides, at airport screenings everything is stowed in my carry-on, including wallet.At midnight San Diego time, I checked into my hotel.East coast time said I’d been awake 24 hours because who can really sleep on a plane?Once my patted-down body reaches 3 a.m., Eastern Time, it wakes up.In these circumstances it’s good to know I can rely on that shirt in my drawer.That’s what rituals are all about.
Sometimes you meet kindred spirits in books.Barbara Brown Taylor’s Learning to Walk in the Dark has been waiting patiently.It’s one of those books that I suspected would meet me where I live, and regarding this I was correct.Brown Taylor, a former Episcopal priest and professor of religion (both of which I attempted but failed to achieve), has the courage and insight to suggest that darkness might just be a friend.The darker half of the year settled hard on me this year.As its black wings gathered about me I reached for this book.I’ve been struggling with a question I’m sometimes asked: why do I let my thoughts linger in what must be considered darker corners?I watch horror and write books and stories about monsters.What’s wrong with me anyway?
One accusation may be fairly leveled at much of American religion is that it is shallow.Light is uncritically accepted as good and dark becomes somehow evil.There are biblical prooftexts that can be used to “prove” this, but they change color when you wrestle with them.Learning to Walk in the Dark contains many ways of reflecting on realities which are inevitable.Brown Taylor visits museums that give the sighted the experience of being blind in a safe environment.She spends time in caves.She stretches out beneath the stars and contemplates the dark night of the soul as well as the cloud of unknowing.These latter two are, of course, spiritual classics.There’s quite a bit that can be learned from experiencing darkness and listening intently.
My own predilections toward subjects called “dark” are forms of therapy.My religion simply can’t be shallow.I need enough water to swim.And yes, I’m afraid of deep water.Darkness perhaps comes more naturally to those of us who are awake for every sunrise.If I move far enough north that may cease to be the case, but for the last decade or so my internal alarm goes off a couple hours before the first sliver of light creeps over the eastern hills.And I seem to have assimilated to it.As I read Learning I could imagine the accusations flying from my former Nashotah House context.Looking at that patriarchal theology of sin and misery, however, I think there’s no question whence true darkness comes.Without the dark we could never tell that it was light.Since we need both, it seems wise to follow the sage advice here offered and get to know the dusky side a bit more intimately.
The funny thing about my movie watching is that it’s a reflection of my scattered lifestyle.While I was teaching my career progression was linear with a goal of moving beyond Nashotah House to a college or university that shared my values better.Publishing was a fallback, and I’ve learned a lot but I haven’t unlearned my academic leanings.So, like the rest of my life, my movie watching is piecemeal.I found a copy of A Quiet Place in a Halloween sale.My wife bought it for me and on a weekend on my own I watched it.I had no idea what it was about, but I’d read that it was an intelligent horror film, and that was good enough for me!There may be spoilers here if you live in a cave, like I do (metaphorically), so be warned.
The backstory isn’t fully spelled out, but the monsters in this movie are blind and attracted to their victims by sound.The focus is on a family in upstate New York that’s trying to survive without making any noise.Since there are kids involved, you’ll see how tricky this could be.John Krasinski’s film builds the suspense wonderfully.Borrowing from M. Night Shyamalan at his best, and Alien and even Stranger Things, the movie has a odd effect.When it’s over you don’t want to make any noise.I watched it while my wife had to work over the weekend, and I put the DVD away as quietly as I could, and then went to bed.Awaking alone the next morning, I continued the vigil.Critics praised the movie for its silence, perhaps what we’re most afraid of in this noisy world.
I spend a lot of time saying nothing.Editing is a quiet job.Telecommuting is a quiet lifestyle.At Nashotah House we had mandatory quiet days, which, if they weren’t mandatory I would’ve loved.I’d seriously considered a monastic lifestyle when I was younger—there’s great value in being quiet.A horror film that teaches that lesson, despite many obviously unanswered questions, is worth paying attention to.Horror films have continued to grow more intelligent over the years.This one is rated PG-13 and will have you on the edge of your seat (or under the bed) anyway.And it’s got an important message.For those of us who don’t say much (maybe that’s why I write all the time) a movie like this acts, if you will, as a loudspeaker.Does anybody hear me?
The word “Anthropocene” has been showing up quite a bit lately.For a period of many years I was an avid, self-taught amateur geologist.In my dreams I still am, I guess.My interest in the ages of rocks began when I, like Charles Lyell, began to consider the implications of their extreme longevity.The Bible, of course, famously intimates we live in a comparatively new neighborhood.Having grown up believing that literally and firmly, and also having started a modest fossil collection, I failed to see the conflict.I mean, there were fossils right down there by the river.Tons of them.Some Young Earth Creationists had already begun, by that point, to suggest they’d arisen because of Noah’s flood, but dinosaurs still seemed to be a problem.In many ways rocks broke me out of my fundamentalist stupor.
While at Nashotah House I taught electives on Genesis 1-11.I read about the geologic ages of the planet and would fall into Devonian dreams of a world entirely different from ours—a world in which there was no Bible for there were no humans to make God in their image.I knew that we lived in the Quaternary Period of the Holocene Era.I don’t think the term Anthropocene was in wide use then.Parsing it is simple enough—it is the “human age.”The age in which the planet was, has been, and is being altered by human behavior. There’s no agreed-up start date for the Anthropocene, but it will likely be set in the twentieth century; the twentieth century in our way of counting.There have been millions of centuries before that.
A couple of weekends back I attended a church program on plastics.These useful polymers are deeply, deeply integrated into our lives and are promoted by the far too powerful petroleum industry.The problem with plastics is that they break down and invade the bodies of animals and humans.And although they do decompose it takes many centuries for them to do so.Naming the Anthropocene is an effort to get us to see that a human perspective is far too brief to deal with the many issues we raise.Our practices on this planet will likely not destroy the earth, but they may very well make it uninhabitable by us, or by creatures we like to see.Life is persistent, and rock lasts for eons.Even stone’s not eternal, however, and the idea of the Anthropocene is to get us to look at ourselves and realize that our use of this planet, as toxic as it is, is shortsighted.We will someday be the fossils under a bridge long crumbled to dust for those in the future who know of no such thing as Genesis. Perhaps we should act like it.
You never know where you might find yourself, but wherever it is it’ll cost you some money.Well, at least in this instance it did.Nashotah House sent me packing just as we were thinking about college for our daughter.It took several years to find any kind of full-time position again, and when university time began I had had a full salaried job for a total of one year of the last seven.Not ideal, of course.I remember sitting (again) in the financial aid office, explaining the situation and, as it often goes in higher education, receiving no mercy.As much as I remember the conversation, I don’t recall a photographer in the room. There must’ve been, though, since I recently showed up on the Binghamton University website.
I had, of course, applied for a job or two there.When out of state tuition is riding on such a deal, however, I doubt there’s any way to get considered.I actually like Binghamton University quite a lot.I appreciate the fact that it doesn’t pour its money into a football team and that it has the reputation of being a “Public Ivy” school.I even like the campus removed from city bounds—just like Nashotah House.I did end up paying them quite a bit of lucre through the years, even as my own alma maters were asking alms.Higher education is a funny world.Standing somewhere between a money-making venture and a site of education for its own sake.Many professors don’t realize just how privileged they are to have jobs like that.
Upstate New York, although I’ve never lived there, is one of my ancestral homes.My grandfather and his family had lived in the area at least as far back as the 1770s.I tried to convey that sense of connection in my application, many years ago now.Academia doesn’t put much stock in the idea of belonging, I guess.It has become far too businesslike for that.Binghamton was also the town in which Rod Serling, one of my childhood heroes, grew up.There seemed to be so many reasons to be in that area.Eventually I settled for life in my own native Pennsylvania.People sense, although academics less than others apparently, that they belong in a place.And if you can’t actually be there, you can still spend your money in any location.I’ve now got a picture to prove it.
Every once in a while a reader, either here or on other social media, asks me what my religious beliefs are.The expected answer to such a question is the standard label of a denomination of some sort.My response, however, is that knowing the group I belong to (and I do) should not effect the way my thoughts are viewed.With the exception of some groups suspected of mind control, standard religions are generally trusted as being motivated by pure intentions.Having both attended and taught in seminary settings, and knowing a great number of clergy, however, it becomes clear that denomination is less important than one might think.In short, I answer this question in the public forum of neither classroom nor blog as I truly believe there’s nothing to be gained by readers/students knowing where I personally seek meaning, denominationally.
It’s no secret that it was once the Episcopal Church.(I could not have taught at Nashotah House otherwise.)It was made pretty clear after being at said seminary for many years that the Episcopalians had no official place for me.Even when I worked a few blocks from the church’s headquarters in New York City I could find no one willing to listen or consider my credentials.Its Church Publishing branch wouldn’t consider me in their book wing.Were it not for some former students who still minister to me, it was clear they did not miss me.So it was with some surprise that I found myself in Nativity Cathedral in Bethlehem on Saturday for their Celtic Mass.The Cathedral itself is lovely with a négligée of wrought iron tracery for a reredos, appropriate for a city built by steel.Eight angels with outspread wings stood atop it.Like most sanctuaries, it was a place of refuge from the busy, noisy street outside.
The reading from Amos 7 stood out to me.Lectionaries, by definition, take pericopes (selections) out of context.Amos’ vision of the plumb line is actually part of a series of visions, but here stands alone with the episode of Amaziah trying to send Amos back to Judah.The prophet responds by saying he’s not a prophet, but just a guy who’s received a message from God.In ancient times there were prophets paid for their services.They supported the government positions and governments made sure they were cared for.The situation hasn’t much changed, at least among conservative religious groups under a Republican administration.There were other parallels here, but saying too much on them might end up giving too much away.