One of the features of this blog, which as inclined more lately toward books of all sorts rather than simply religion, is that I only write one post per book read.There’s no law that says this should (or must) be the case, but I’ve held myself to that standard for about a decade now, and if I have trouble recalling a book this blog is generally a kickstarter for my memory before hauling myself off to the attic to find the physical copy—long live print!—to do a bit more detailed work.This method sometimes leads to crises of my own making.Long books take some time to get through.And despite the action-packed picture you get of my life from this web log, many long weeks are spent doing work and I can’t really share the details here.And so it goes.
Like many people I read multiple books at a time.Although I have a kind of general plan, the actual books being read at any one time often depend on my ability to lay my hands on a copy.And since I’m in the final stages of Nightmares with the Bible, I tend to prioritize books I really should read in whole for that tome.I also read (and write) fiction.Normally I reserve my fiction for bedtime reading; it’s more pleasant to prepare for sleep with an engaging story that I know isn’t factual enough to haunt me.Sometimes the fiction is a long book too.Two lengthy books going simultaneously feels like trying to pass a truck going uphill. Or swimming underwater.The insistence of the necessity of taking a breath (writing a blog post on a book) strains against me as I look up and see the surface still some distance away.Drowning in words, however, isn’t that bad.
As I confessed to a friend the other day, I am a graphomaniac.I write incessantly.To do that it helps to read incessantly.At any one time I’ve got several books going, and I’ll let you know when I reach the end of any of them.This is, I suppose, the bookish life.Ironically I read more now than when I was a professor.Those days were filled with lesson prep, teaching, and reading student papers.Grading tests.Fulfilling administrative duties.On the days when I feel like lamenting my lack of time (and those are most days) I need to remind myself that a great deal more of my effort is now spent with books than it used to be.You’ll have to trust me on that since I don’t always get to write about reading until the long books are done.And that’s okay by me.
There comes a point, in my experience of book writing, when you can think of nothing else.This is near the end of the process.For months and months you’ve been working at it in increments, and the sudden realization hits you that other people are (you hope) going to read what you’ve been scratching out for a couple of years.My interlocutors tend to be in print or email form.I don’t work day-to-day with colleagues who know about the book, nor, I suspect, would they care very much.In my case this comes as I’m trying to generate attention for Holy Horror, with very limited results.But I don’t have time to think about that now.Nightmares with the Bible is almost ready to submit.If only I had more time to read everything.If only.
Writing is a challenging form of expression.Let me qualify that: getting writing published is challenging.The actual craft flows.The book that is intended to pass scholarly muster, however, must be full of notes and quotes.I’m trying to leave those behind as much as possible since I’ve been reading about these topics for decades and that ought to count for something.Still, that nagging doubt awakes you—haven’t you overlooked something?Some vital source that you should’ve cited?Some argument that knocks your book off its stilts?Near the end of the process it’s hard to concentrate on other things such as blog posts and tweets.Yet you need to build your platform while you’re standing on it.And then there’s the small matter of work that will demand well over forty of your waking hours this coming week.And the index—you can’t forget the index!
In the intervening months you might’ve read some newspaper headlines, read some books off-topic, read other people’s blogs, kept up with social media.Now, however, you have tunnel vision.You’ve said what you have to say, you think.You must check it.And recheck it.Did you leave a sentence open for later comment?What chapter was that in?Have you figured out how to close it?Woe betide those to whom this happens at tax time.Or before a business trip.Making a living as a writer you do not.This avocation, however, is your life.Your legacy.Editors who’ve been remembered are few.A book is a stab at immortality.There are meetings.There are work deadlines.There’s a lawn to mow.Those, however, are mere distractions at this point.
My wife often works weekends.Generally this involves trips to New Jersey, and since my unconventional schedule means we see each other awake only a brief time during the week, I often tag along.The colder months of the year, and general economic caution, mean things to be done around the house can wait.Most of the locations where she works have nearby bookstores, but even a guy with proclivities like mine finds it hard to spend more three or four hours in one place, even in such a welcome environment.It finally occurred to me that one need not be a resident to find shelter, and free wifi, in the public library.I’ll pack my laptop, and if it’s going to be a full day, a sack lunch, and head to the library for a change of scenery.It has led to a kind of renaissance for my spirits.
Public libraries generally do not house the books I read.The source of my jouissance has rather been discoveringhow well used the libraries are.In both affluent and more modest neighborhoods, people willingly spend part of their Saturdays in buildings dedicated to learning.Not all are there for the books, but they seem comfortable surrounded by them.We gather in a temple to the human mind.And everyone’s generally quiet.Mentors coach young people who want to learn.Some even dress well, as if the library might be a place to be seen.In a nation where education is under attack, I always leave refreshed without spending a penny.
Such opportunities are a rarity.Before the library opens, if we happen to be at her venue early, I may need to find a Starbucks.They more or less assume you’ll consume to utilize their free wifi, but beyond that a day at the library comes without cost and considerable gain.A variety of ethnicities are always present, and nobody’s right to be here is questioned.It’s a microcosm of what we could be as a nation, had we the will, the desire to learn and let learn.People generally have a difficult time with silence—just ask any introvert.I suspect this is one reason not everyone shares my enthusiasm for a cloistered experience of a Saturday.Libraries are where we’re forced to be relatively quiet to respect the needs of those actually there to read.Hoi polloi prefer to be loud, as any bar on a weekend afternoon will reveal.But the libraries remain, and even in their own way, are buzzing hives of the life of the mind.
The costs for academic books can seem criminal.Don’t get me wrong; I work in academic publishing and I know the reasons—or at least the reasons publishers seem to believe—for such pricing.Still, when I see a book that my little public library will never be able to convince its network that it should be able to borrow, I look at the prices and blanche.At least the pallor looks good with my skin type, or so at least I’m led to believe.Why are books so very expensive when so few of them retain any resale value?Publishing—the information business—is unlike any other.In fact, it could be argued that the printing press was the earliest internet.Ideas could be spread more quickly, among those who were able to read, than they could have previously.
These days books are the handmaidens to the internet.The problem, of course, is that the web contains ideas that haven’t been vetted.Publishers offer that service, but you have to pay for it.Books don’t sell like they used to—physical books, I mean.Inflation, however, ensures that the cost of paying employees is constantly going up.This is the hidden factor of “overhead”—the cost of doing business.You need to sell a lot of books to pay a staff.Not only that, but unlike most “commodities”—I shuddered as I typed that word—books can be returned to a publisher if they don’t sell.It’s like an entire business model run on consignment.And the honest truth is—academic authors may want to cover their eyes for this part—very few books sell more that a couple hundred copies.That means that the per unit cost has to go up.Next thing you know you’re selling a kidney to continue your research.
I keep a running list of books I’d like.Some are for research and some are for other pleasures.The list grows quite lengthy when more and more interesting books get published.I look at academic books and I wonder if maybe there’s another way.If they were priced down in the range of mere mortals, would they sell enough copies to meet their costs?I’m well aware that Holy Horror is priced at $45.Believe it or not, that’s on the lower end of academic extortion pricing.Many books on my “must read” list cost three times as much.Are we paying the price for keeping knowledge solvent?Or is all of this just criminal?
I take good care of books.It’s my personal goal that after I’ve read a book you won’t be able to tell.I used to mark books up, but it occurred to me that I want the books to outlast me and if someone else is to get the full benefit of them I shouldn’t be doing such scribbling.Of course, when a book has to commute with you there’s bound to be some scuffing from being put into a briefcase along with other necessities.On the days I don’t commute, I try to replicate bus time for reading.I curl up in a chair with my book and a cup of coffee to warm my fingers, and read.The other day as I did this, a drop of coffee made its way from my mug onto the open page.I was aghast.
Reading a marred book page is eternally distracting.My eye is immediately drawn to the imperfection and I sometimes can’t even make sense of the sentence in which the blemish occurs.Not because I can’t read it, but because I can’t get beyond the hurt.Coffee rings are chic, I know, on the cover of a book or a notebook page.It’s one of the truest clichés of the literary crowd.Coffee and a good book.Not coffee in a good book!I tried to get back into the flow of the narrative.My eye kept wandering back to the spot I’d unintentionally marred—I’d violated my own principles.Unintentionally of course—this isn’t Starbucks where the heat is set at a reasonable level and you don’t have to scrunch up to keep warm.But still.But still.
After many minutes of feeling like I’d shot a friend, I managed to move on.I kept turning back to my coffee page to see if the damage was as distracting as I thought it was.After work that night when I picked my book up again—commuting is a twice a day activity—I turned back to the damaged page and frowned.Books are, to some of us, friends.I want to treat them right.I line them up in order on their shelves, knowing just where to find them when I need them again.One careless drop of coffee had taken its eternal toll on an innocent tome.I realize this world lacks perfection; I’m not naive.Still, this book, which wasn’t cheap, now bears a scar that I dealt it.Will I ever comprehend what that one page says? I hope my silent friend will forgive.
Driving into upstate New York via interstate 81 you’ll find a remarkable rest stop.To put this into context, I should say that my wife and I have driven from Maine to Washington (not on a single trip) and from Wisconsin to Louisiana and South Carolina.We’ve laid down considerable mileage together, and never have we encountered such a nice rest stop.Clean, modern, and featuring local goods for sale, it’s a loving homage to the southern tier, the New York outside the city.One of the features of this unusual facility is a terrazzo floor fresco highlighting the various points of interest within a couple hours’ drive.Mostly when we stop here we look toward Binghamton and Ithaca, the cities we most frequently visit.We stop to use the restroom and then drive on.
When we stopped over the holidays, however, we lingered a little bit.There’s a display on Mark Twain—he lived in Elmira, New York for a time—and there’s an in-ground plaque outside to Rod Serling.I spent some time looking over the points of interest in the floor map when my wife pointed out a site listed as Hobart Book Village of the Catskills.I couldn’t believe that I’d been in this building dozens of times but had never bothered to look that far east.Curious, I did a web search once we reached out destination.There is, it turns out, a village in upstate known for its main street of book stores.What perhaps impressed me even more was that it was considered significant enough to be given a kind of “Hollywood star” treatment in what is an often overlooked part of the state.
Now I can’t say what my impressions of Hobart are.I’ve never been there, having just learned of it on a recent roadtrip.What I can say is that my world suddenly began to feel just a bit more friendly knowing that such a place exists.We live in a country that could indeed use a bit more positive influence.Some of my happiest memories involve bookstores.Back in my teaching days we made regular autumnal literary weekend trips, visiting sites haunted by writers.Often we’d find an independent bookstore near such sacred places.To many, I realize, this would smack of nonsense, but to those ensconced in literary dreams, it created pleasant memories.You feel something in the air as you stand near the house or grave of an author.Places are made sacred by what transpires within them.The writing of books shapes the very space-time around them.At least it does for those who even find inspiration in an interstate rest stop.
While this blog ranges over an outdated map of my mind, one of the two common elements that hold it together is books.I don’t have many bibliophile followers, but for any who happen upon my pages, welcome.Each year at this time I look back over the year in books.I started doing this when I joined Goodreads.I don’t put every single book in Goodreads, but it’s a fair register of what I’ve been up to.This year I set a reduced goal of 65 books (I knew I’d be moving and commuting less, and I do most of my reading on the bus).Happily I ended the year with 83 officially read, but then the first five months of the year were still spent in daily commutes.
Three years ago my wife discovered the Modern Mrs. Darcy’s reading challenge.I can’t say just how much I look forward to the new year just to begin reading the books I select to meet that challenge.The reason I do this is to force myself into reading things I might not feel like reading, or often, books I’ve been putting off for some reason or another.It only amounts to a dozen books and if I can’t get through twelve in a year, something’s terribly wrong.Margaret Atwood once said something like “Show me a person who’s read a thousand books and I’ll show you an interesting person.”I didn’t really need that quote to set a goal, and I don’t think of it as bragging for readers to share their experience with books.I started getting into books in middle school, and although I didn’t keep track in those days I likely read a thousand books before I graduated from high school.Branches begin to bend to the light early on.
So, were there memorable books this year?My reading, due to contractual obligations (I brought them on myself), has tended to be dark.There were, nevertheless, spots of light.Thomas Hardy’s Jude the Obscure and Paul Bogard’s The Ground Beneath Us were early favorites.I managed to stop my ears enough to miss spoilers from Jeff Vandermeer’s wonderful Annihilation.Carl Sagan’s The Demon-Haunted World was artfully done, and Gregory Alan Thornbury’s Why Should the Devil Have All the Good Music? was a saunter down memory lane.Selections from my reading challenge fiction that I really enjoyed were Anne Tyler’s Vinegar Girl, and Emily Fridlund’s History of Wolves. And Lee Irby’s Unreliable.And and Carlos Ruiz Zafón’s The Shadow of the Wind.The last inspired non-fiction title I read was Susan Fair’s American Witches.I always appreciate suggestions, just sayin’.Reading is the balm in my personal Gilead, and I look forward to a 2019 full of books, even if I can’t keep the pace of years past.