Goodreads is always a little eager to put the tally on a year’s worth of reading.This year, however, since I’ve been engaged in some larger books, they may be on target.According to their count I’ve read 71 books this year.(I re-read two, so my personal count is 73.)New Year’s Eve, for me, is a time to reflect about what I’ve learned in the past year.Much of that involves books I’ve read.A good deal of my reading has been for Nightmares with the Bible.To write a book you need to read books.Frequently it means taking them on regardless of your mood—and I tend to be a mood-driven reader.So what books stand out from 2019? (They all have individual posts on this blog, in case you missed them.)
My first nonfiction book of the year was Christopher Skaife’s The Ravenmaster.Animal intelligence always makes for good reading and this was reprised in Jennifer Ackerman’s The Genius of Birds.I’ve fallen behind in my Frans de Waal reading, though.Of the many research books on the Devil and demons, Jeffrey Burton Russell’s Mephistopheles stands out.Russell’s clear thinking and wide view make him a pleasure to read even on unpleasant subjects.Other books in that category didn’t quite rise to his level.Monster books, on the other hand, rocked.I loved James Neibaur’s Monster Movies of Universal Studios, Mallory O’Meara’s Lady from the Black Lagoon, and Kröger and Anderson’s Monster, She Wrote.These were all excellent.Tipping toward the unusual, Guy Playfair’s This House Is Haunted and Jeffrey Kripal’s The Flip gave me pause for thought.
Perhaps because I was reading longer books, this year didn’t have fiction in the numbers I usually strive for.Most of it was quite good, though. David Mitchell’s Cloud Atlas was memorable and Italo Calvino’s If on a Winter’s Night a Traveller (strangely similar to Mitchell) became an instant favorite.My young adult fix came through Christy Lenzi’s Stonefield and Lois Lowry’s The Giver.Victor Gischler scored with Vampire a Go-Go and Cherie Priest made a fine impression with The Toll.I mentioned Neal Stephenson’s Fall yesterday, but it will stay with me into 2020.
A couple of memories/biographies also made deep marks on my mind.Anne Serling’s As I Knew Him brought me close to Rod Serling and Barbara Taylor Brown’s Learning to Walk in the Dark found me where I live.America’s Dark Theologian by Douglas E. Cowan isn’t really biography, but it was thought-provoking (as his books always are) and increased my resolve to read some more Stephen King.The books I read make me more myself.At the end of each year I think back over it all. And this year I pondered what got me through a difficult 2019.I have ended the year more myself than ever, I suspect, and I looking forward to a reading through the new decade.
When an artisan begins a new job, s/he must acquire the tools of the trade.During a period of unemployment I seriously considered getting certified as a plumber.I’d done some plumbing repair and, unlike many people, I wasn’t afraid of it.(I am, however, terrified of electrical work.)When I was looking into it, it became clear that there would be a significant outlay of tool purchasing up front.While all of this may seem obvious, people are often surprised to learn that writing books also involves tools acquisition, although it generally pays far less than plumbing.The tools used to be made of paper, but they can wrench pipes apart and rebuild a bathroom from scratch.I’m referring to books, of course.In order to write books you have to read books.
Long ago I gave up on trying to read everything in an area before writing.There’s just too much published these days.When I was teaching and actually had a modest book allowance I would attend AAR/SBL only to come back with armloads of books that I needed for my research. Of course I had the backing of the seminary library as well, so I could find things.As an independent scholar doing the same work, however, you have to do a lot more tool acquiring since no library will back you up.Nightmares with the Bible came back from peer review with a standard-issue academic who wanted me to “show my work.”(I.e., document everything.)Apart from slowing the book down (it is written), this also means acquiring tools.AAR/SBL always reminds me of just how much is being published these days and that my toolbox, although already quite hefty, isn’t nearly big enough.
As I’m going through Nightmares rewriting and adding footnotes, I’m discovering more and more material that could be included.As an editor myself I try hard to keep to assigned word counts, and the entire allotment could easily be taken up by bibliography alone.I am very modest in my spending at conferences now—independent contractors have to be.Nightmares will likely be my last academic book; I can’t afford to keep going like this.I don’t plan to give up writing, of course, just academic publishing.Both this book and Holy Horror were written for non-specialist readerships, to showcase my non-technical way of explaining things.Both ended up with academic presses and are slated to be among those specialist tools that the beginning artisan covets but for which s/he has to budget.And when this house is finished it will have an impressive, if most unusual, private library.
Something happens to you on a long bus ride, reading a mind-blowing book.Part of the transport—literally—is that you’re captive for an hour or two and your book is your boon companion among snoring strangers.Another aspect is the earliness of the hour.Days like yesterday, when I have to commute to New York, involve awaking at 2:30 a.m.The day is cast very differently when your timing shifts back by a few hours.It’s almost mystical.The largest portion of the transformative experience, however, is the book itself.I’ve begun commutes with a book that I quickly realize is a mistake, but since I’m not a quitter, I soldier through it to the end anyway.On yesterday’s commute the book was one of those that caught my imagination and flew it like a kite from the rear of the bus.Arriving in Manhattan before six a.m. added to the feeling.The city’s a very different place that time of day.
Not everyone enjoys reading, I realize.My late stepfather once had a job as an elevator man.Not the kind dressed in livery at a big-city hotel, but as an operator in an antiquated building in Oil City, Pennsylvania, where you had to pull the metal gateway physically across the door and wait until the floor leveled before opening it again.I didn’t get along with my stepfather, but one day I went to visit him in the elevator.It wasn’t a busy building.He sat on a stool, staring straight ahead.For hours at a time.Not a man prone to meditation, I knew he had to be bored.I asked if I could bring him something to read, at least.He declined for fear of missing someone’s call signal.It was one of the most frightening scenarios I could imagine.
The clock in the Port Authority read 5:49 when we pulled in.The day seemed full of possibilities.I caught the 4:30 home, but the magic was gone.The book had moved on to more technical things.Traffic was bad, and there’s a world of difference between reading while the bus moves and trying to do so when it’s caught in traffic.The commute out of New York City is normally a nightmare, and yesterday traffic didn’t flow freely until we were nearly through New Jersey.My book was still my companion, but rather more like when a conversation ebbs after an intense discussion.There was the worry of getting home, taking out the garbage, and trying to stay awake until a reasonable hour.The book would still be there tomorrow, but I wouldn’t be the same.
It occurred to me the other day that I will never read all the books on my list.Only in my fifties, it’s not as if I’m knocking at death’s door, but who hasn’t been aware that that gentle rapping might come at any time?Macabre?Maybe.Realistic?Definitely.Perhaps I’m a little old to be thinking about prioritizing, but it’s pretty clear that between work, writing, and the requirements of daily life (taking the car to the shop, scheduling a dentist appointment, trying to find time for a haircut, lawn care), that something’s got to give.Work’s the non-negotiable since without it avoiding starvation (or perhaps getting medical coverage) becomes a full-time job.Best to leave that sleeping dog slumber.Then come the other three Rs: relationships, reading, and writing.After that the time left to divide is pretty petty indeed.
My reading list grows almost daily.Reading is a form of relationship.I’ve recklessly written to writers after finishing their books, convinced that they’d written it to me.I’ve also read material that, when done, makes me regret the time spent.Still, I don’t, I can’t give up.Writing is a form of giving back.The other day an editor who’d accepted one of my fictional stories wrote that she couldn’t stop reading it.It doesn’t matter that the magazine doesn’t pay—I’ve received back already what I’d planned for all along.A kind of relationship with a reader.If WordPress is to be believed, there are some followers on this blog.Most think I write too much, and some, perhaps, too little.Writing, however, like reading, is the formation of relationships.
Like relationships, reading takes time.I carve out a spot for it daily but that doesn’t really make a dent in the growing reading list.I can’t claim that it’s because I’m no longer a professor.Except during the summer I read more now than I did when I was teaching (the professor’s life isn’t what most people think).It is, I believe, that there are so many interesting ideas out there that one person simply doesn’t have time to think them all.Reading and writing are a form of very slow conversation.Of course, with technology the rest of life is speeding up.Things seem now to happen instantly.The world of books is slower, and the pace is far more sane.I may never get through my list of books to read, but at least I have good conversation with those I don’t know, and that’s what really matters.
One of the features of this blog, which as inclined more lately toward books of all sorts rather than simply religion, is that I only write one post per book read.There’s no law that says this should (or must) be the case, but I’ve held myself to that standard for about a decade now, and if I have trouble recalling a book this blog is generally a kickstarter for my memory before hauling myself off to the attic to find the physical copy—long live print!—to do a bit more detailed work.This method sometimes leads to crises of my own making.Long books take some time to get through.And despite the action-packed picture you get of my life from this web log, many long weeks are spent doing work and I can’t really share the details here.And so it goes.
Like many people I read multiple books at a time.Although I have a kind of general plan, the actual books being read at any one time often depend on my ability to lay my hands on a copy.And since I’m in the final stages of Nightmares with the Bible, I tend to prioritize books I really should read in whole for that tome.I also read (and write) fiction.Normally I reserve my fiction for bedtime reading; it’s more pleasant to prepare for sleep with an engaging story that I know isn’t factual enough to haunt me.Sometimes the fiction is a long book too.Two lengthy books going simultaneously feels like trying to pass a truck going uphill. Or swimming underwater.The insistence of the necessity of taking a breath (writing a blog post on a book) strains against me as I look up and see the surface still some distance away.Drowning in words, however, isn’t that bad.
As I confessed to a friend the other day, I am a graphomaniac.I write incessantly.To do that it helps to read incessantly.At any one time I’ve got several books going, and I’ll let you know when I reach the end of any of them.This is, I suppose, the bookish life.Ironically I read more now than when I was a professor.Those days were filled with lesson prep, teaching, and reading student papers.Grading tests.Fulfilling administrative duties.On the days when I feel like lamenting my lack of time (and those are most days) I need to remind myself that a great deal more of my effort is now spent with books than it used to be.You’ll have to trust me on that since I don’t always get to write about reading until the long books are done.And that’s okay by me.
There comes a point, in my experience of book writing, when you can think of nothing else.This is near the end of the process.For months and months you’ve been working at it in increments, and the sudden realization hits you that other people are (you hope) going to read what you’ve been scratching out for a couple of years.My interlocutors tend to be in print or email form.I don’t work day-to-day with colleagues who know about the book, nor, I suspect, would they care very much.In my case this comes as I’m trying to generate attention for Holy Horror, with very limited results.But I don’t have time to think about that now.Nightmares with the Bible is almost ready to submit.If only I had more time to read everything.If only.
Writing is a challenging form of expression.Let me qualify that: getting writing published is challenging.The actual craft flows.The book that is intended to pass scholarly muster, however, must be full of notes and quotes.I’m trying to leave those behind as much as possible since I’ve been reading about these topics for decades and that ought to count for something.Still, that nagging doubt awakes you—haven’t you overlooked something?Some vital source that you should’ve cited?Some argument that knocks your book off its stilts?Near the end of the process it’s hard to concentrate on other things such as blog posts and tweets.Yet you need to build your platform while you’re standing on it.And then there’s the small matter of work that will demand well over forty of your waking hours this coming week.And the index—you can’t forget the index!
In the intervening months you might’ve read some newspaper headlines, read some books off-topic, read other people’s blogs, kept up with social media.Now, however, you have tunnel vision.You’ve said what you have to say, you think.You must check it.And recheck it.Did you leave a sentence open for later comment?What chapter was that in?Have you figured out how to close it?Woe betide those to whom this happens at tax time.Or before a business trip.Making a living as a writer you do not.This avocation, however, is your life.Your legacy.Editors who’ve been remembered are few.A book is a stab at immortality.There are meetings.There are work deadlines.There’s a lawn to mow.Those, however, are mere distractions at this point.
My wife often works weekends.Generally this involves trips to New Jersey, and since my unconventional schedule means we see each other awake only a brief time during the week, I often tag along.The colder months of the year, and general economic caution, mean things to be done around the house can wait.Most of the locations where she works have nearby bookstores, but even a guy with proclivities like mine finds it hard to spend more three or four hours in one place, even in such a welcome environment.It finally occurred to me that one need not be a resident to find shelter, and free wifi, in the public library.I’ll pack my laptop, and if it’s going to be a full day, a sack lunch, and head to the library for a change of scenery.It has led to a kind of renaissance for my spirits.
Public libraries generally do not house the books I read.The source of my jouissance has rather been discoveringhow well used the libraries are.In both affluent and more modest neighborhoods, people willingly spend part of their Saturdays in buildings dedicated to learning.Not all are there for the books, but they seem comfortable surrounded by them.We gather in a temple to the human mind.And everyone’s generally quiet.Mentors coach young people who want to learn.Some even dress well, as if the library might be a place to be seen.In a nation where education is under attack, I always leave refreshed without spending a penny.
Such opportunities are a rarity.Before the library opens, if we happen to be at her venue early, I may need to find a Starbucks.They more or less assume you’ll consume to utilize their free wifi, but beyond that a day at the library comes without cost and considerable gain.A variety of ethnicities are always present, and nobody’s right to be here is questioned.It’s a microcosm of what we could be as a nation, had we the will, the desire to learn and let learn.People generally have a difficult time with silence—just ask any introvert.I suspect this is one reason not everyone shares my enthusiasm for a cloistered experience of a Saturday.Libraries are where we’re forced to be relatively quiet to respect the needs of those actually there to read.Hoi polloi prefer to be loud, as any bar on a weekend afternoon will reveal.But the libraries remain, and even in their own way, are buzzing hives of the life of the mind.