The sound was compellingly familiar although it had been years since I’d heard it.We were visiting the Quakertown farmer’s market for the first time—this weekend event is widely advertised and we were curious.Part fresh produce, but mostly flea market, it was a tribute to my generation.You could find stuff from my childhood years here, making it a species of time travel.We stepped out of the car on a gray morning when I heard it.I was drawn to it.I’m at the age where I recognize things before I can name them.“Where are you going?” my wife asked.“Toward Pink Floyd,” I replied.Music has a way of doing that to you.It took another minute for me to place the song.It was from the album The Wall.
After we returned home I had to hear it again, uninterrupted by the distractions of a flea market to new home owners.It was a frightening experience in the age of Trump.Although they’d never been my favorite band, I had a long history with Pink Floyd.My older brother used to listen to them, and when I was working as a church intern (yes, there is such a thing) while in college, the kids in a family I was staying with took me to see The Wall on laser disc—an affluent family in the neighborhood had just bought a player, and I was curious both about the technology and the film.The Wall is one of those concept albums that requires attention—you kind of need to listen to the whole thing.The accusations against those who are different being sent “up against the wall” chilled me with thoughts of Trump and American fascism.I can only listen to the album within prescribed headspace.
Even those who’ve never been sent to boarding school can imagine how it lends itself to abuses and horror.At Nashotah House the album was almost as frequently cited as Hotel California.When the religious isolate themselves odd things begin to happen.On one of the occasions when I was left home alone in our New Jersey apartment, I pulled out my DVD of The Wall and began to watch it.As the years melted away, I suddenly felt young and intensely vulnerable.The visuals, like a little pin-prick, were jabbing at nerves a little too close to the surface.I had to turn it off and watch a horror film instead.It’s even scarier to listen to the album when democracy has failed its constituents.The wall, after all, is a most protean of metaphors.
I’ve never started a fight. I’m actually a very conciliatory type, willing to be wronged in order to avoid an unnecessary confrontation. This election has made me feel a little pugilistic, however. The sheer size of Trump’s loss based on the popular vote makes me hope I’m not alone in this. I find myself in San Antonio at the moment. The American Academy of Religion and Society of Biblical Literature annual meeting, which rolls around the weekend before Thanksgiving, has been a regular aspect of my career since 1991. My hotel room overlooks the Alamo, and the implications—indeed, the irony—are not lost on me. I don’t know a great deal of Texas history, but what kid grows up without hearing about Davy Crockett, who died a few yards from where I lay down my head?
I’ve known many Texans in my life. Many of them have been, and continue to be, perfectly reasonable people. Good and loyal friends. Lots of people like to live here. Indeed, the population of the state has swelled over the past quarter century. I’ve also encountered Texans (particularly at Nashotah House) who acted like the enemy at the Alamo wasn’t Mexico, but the other states. In the light of last week’s election I’m reminded of the words of one of the Mexican officers, after Santa Anna declare the battle a light one. Reportedly another officer quipped, “with another such victory as this, we’ll go to the devil.” Voices from the other side of the wall. Maybe it’s the lack of sleep from getting in so late, but I’m looking at the Alamo and Pink Floyd’s The Wall is going through my head. The lesson of the Alamo is that although you may lose the battle you can still win the war.
This is my second visit to San Antonio. Last time I was here, for the same conference, one of my doctoral advisors was over from Edinburgh, and we walked through the Alamo together. Today we are lamenting Brexit and Trump together. By slim margins the alt-right has learned to game the system. The problem seems to be apathy. It’s clear that we’re going to have to fight from now on just to get a little social justice around here. Strange words coming from the fingers of a lifelong pacifist, but you’d think that the work of Martin Luther King, Jr. and Susan B. Anthony might have had more lasting effects. Perhaps it truly is time to remember the Alamo.