House-buying is perhaps best left for the young. Flexibility is, unfortunately, something that effaces with age, and house-buying is a rough transition at best. For anyone following this blog over the past month, the theme of moving is familiar. How we hired a moving company that didn’t get us in our new place until after 2:30 in the morning. How torrential rains came later and flooded our worldly goods temporarily stored in the garage. How mowing the lawn caused me to question my faith—wait—I haven’t told that one yet! Well, you get the picture. Suffice it to say that although I didn’t think moving would be easy, it’s been a lot more difficult than I could’ve possibly imagined. In the midst of it came a dove.
At times, I must confess, I’m tempted toward superstition. A strange significance between events that are, in actual fact, random. We’ve all read of people who buy a house and discover some secret treasure left stashed away in the attic. The former owners of our house only left undisclosed defects that become clear in periods of prolonged rain. Even so, as I was feeling as miserable as one of Ray Bradbury’s astronauts on Venus—yes, the precipitation does begin to drive you insane after a while!—I decided to try an impose some order on the chaos that is our garage (we haven’t had a dry weekend since moving in to transfer the soggy stuff to our house) I looked down. There, amid the screws and other little detritus left behind in the way of treasure, I found a dove charm. A dove sent after a flood.
The symbolism of the dove with hope is ancient indeed. It predates the Bible when it comes to a symbol that the flood is nearly over. The Mesopotamians also had a dove sent out from the ark, and I’m given to believe this is something ancient mariners, whether they rhymed or not, regularly did to assess if land was near. Unlike our heavy, wingless species, birds can soar over chaos. At least for a while. They are a symbol of hope. Was that dove sent to me on purpose at a time when I needed it, or was it just a random find, one of those too much stuff in a small world moments? There’s no way to assess that, I suppose. For me, on yet another rainy day, it’s a symbol of hope. The only other choice, it seems, would be to build an ark.
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Tagged doves, Mesopotamia, Noah's Ark, Noah's Flood, rain, superstition
Writers are agents against chaos. Those of you who read this blog frequently know that chaos has been one of my themes lately. Moving, which is a process that takes months and months of time, is pure chaos. Whenever I settle down to write, yet another moving-related task comes to me—this box needs to be unpacked, that gap in the fence must be mended, where did I put the toolbox? Mundane things. Writers like to think the world conforms, somehow, to their inner lives. In reality, things are far more complex than that and don’t seem to be getting any easier. Starting to learn about house ownership is something best left for the young, I suspect. Every question (where should we put the television?) leads to a daisy-chain of other issues (but first we need to move that hutch, but it’s too heavy for either of us to lift, etc.).
In ancient times water symbolized chaos. Before we left on vacation, the main issue was to get all boxes off the floor in the garage. We haven’t had time to move them safely inside yet, what with planning for vacation and all, so plastic became the order of the day. We do need, however, to get things inside eventually. A slow process for two middle-aged people with full-time jobs, even without jet lag. Writing feels like a luxury item, for what is most required is time—time to move things to their proper places. Time to figure out what those proper places are. Time to go to work again.
Had we thought this through, we might’ve used vacation this year to unpack. We bought our plane tickets, however, before we bought the house. This latter transaction is one of chaos embodied. Who knew, for example, that the grass had to be cut so often? That all roofs leak? That chaos is constant, and not intermittent? In biblical times, one of the signs of God’s greatness was the ability of the Almighty to hold chaos in constant check. The waters were always lurking, looking for any opening—except when you need rain and it just won’t come. Sitting here writing feels like the giddy irresponsibility of childhood where there’s so much to get done and so little time in which to do it. And neighbors don’t appreciate the lawn being mowed before the sun is properly out of bed. The renter pays a price for living with, for at least some stretches of time, chaos-free maintenance. The home-owner quickly learns that any time left over for writing feels like being irresponsible, and a little bit divine.
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Tagged Chaos, creative writing, lawn care, moving, water
I have gotten me away unto an high place. No, that’s no biblical, but it sure sounds psalm-like. Part of the anxiety I felt about the literary loss over the past few days is that it happened just before a long anticipated, and paid for, vacation. As Thursday dawned, I knew I had only two days to try to rearrange the undamaged books and try to salvage what I could of those that were soaked. And I had to do it quickly and then leave, only to see the results when I returned. Not yet having met any neighbors, and not really being in a position to prevail upon their presumed good will, it was a test of personal endurance. Our garage has an upper floor that remained dry. I made well over an hundred trips up those stairs, book boxes in hand. One cares for ones friends.
For now, however, I am at my favorite high place, in the mountains. On a lake. I’m having to reconcile myself with my old foe H2O, for here it is placid welcoming. It stays outside the cabin and we remain friends. And truth be told, there is a kind of idolatrous element involved in my visits to the lake. You see, I covet peace. Since childhood violence and bullies have led me to a quasi-monastic life—Paul Simon reflected that perfectly in his early song “I am a Rock.” Even Superman had to have his fortress of solitude. Some fear being alone with their thoughts. Although I struggle with them, they are, like my books, who I am.
Dawn’s early light; and it only got worse as the day went on.
Prophets and deuteronomists railed against high places. Such were locations where the God of Israel grew jealous of the attention lavished on other deities. Perhaps religious promiscuity comes naturally to people, but we need our high places to regain perspective. To breathe pine-scented air and feel the chill of a July morning at altitude. Yes, even to reconcile with the splash of water that is here to make life possible rather than to destroy that which you have worked to acquire. Ironically some of the destroyed books had been with me since college—theological classics such as Niebuhr, Gutiérrez, and Tillich, lying on the unmown grass beneath a healing sun. Perhaps they were trying to warn me of the idolatry of such retreat. But here I am, reflecting on loss and hope, and praying that somehow we might just all get along.
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Tagged bamot, Books, Gutiérrez, high places, Niebuhr, Paul Simon, Tillich, water
Liquids are the enemy. Don’t let the cuteness of this little guy fool you—there’s collusion here. For as well as creating life, and being necessary to sustain it, water destroys. Creator, annihilator. We moved during a time when neither of us had vacation and we told the over-tired movers that it was okay to put our boxes in the garage. We planned to move them soon, but, you know, work. Then the rains came. Not just sprinkles, but downpours. The garage isn’t water-tight. Boxes were soaked. Many books were damaged. This wasn’t a flood that can be claimed on insurance, it was simply rain pooling where people usually park their (normally waterproof) cars. In their place sat our books.
We both worked the day after the rains. When we discovered the damage the next evening, it looked manageable. I had to work the next day, of course, and a few breaks sufficed to get the many, many boxes of damaged books out into the sun. It was carnage. We don’t have much in the way of material goods; we spend a bit of money on books, however. Now they’ve become the victims laid out on this altar of home ownership which, at the time, seemed like a good idea. We needed a house for our books. We needed time to move them from the garage to the house. Yes, old friend Morpheus, “Time is always against us.”
Job sat upon his ash-heap and pondered why he’d paid the movers so much only to have his moved goods destroyed. And in a manner in which insurance assessors are trained to point to the fine print. Those who store their goods in the garage reap the wrath of liquid. You see, when water reaches cardboard, or paper, the wood pulp sucks it up. Carefully dried, the paper remembers the compelling nature of water. Too little, and you die. Too much, and you die. No wonder the ancients thought that water was a deity. It claims all—tries to get in through your roof. Lays insouciantly on your basement floor. And the garage—yes, who thought of the garage when the immediate concern was to shut the windows to keep Leviathan out of the house? I spent weeks carefully packing those books against shipping damage. Used up my vacation days doing so. Chaos has claimed them. I would weep, but that would be collusion with the enemy, even if nobody sees.
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Tagged Book of Job, Books, Chaos, moving, water, Weather
While in a used bookstore recently, I was going over the science titles. I like to read accessible science since I often find it approaches religious ideas in secular terms. Once in a while even the terms of these disparate disciplines coalesce. I spied a volume on the top shelf titled The Mercy of the Sky. The spine showed a purplish cloud-bank, and the very concept set me wondering. We’d just been through a bomb cyclone the day before with wind bellowing through our apartment. Many trees were down and power was out for several people I’d overheard talking that day. I stared at the spine, thinking perhaps this would be a good follow-up to Weathering the Psalms, but as I already had books in my hands, and since I’m not the tallest guy around, it seemed beyond my reach. Of course, after I left I thought more about it.
The previous day’s nor’easter had revived that sense of a storm as divine anger. Strong winds, my wife commented, are generally disturbing. They make it difficult to sleep. It’s hard to feel secure when the heavens are anything but merciful. Although the wind is easily forgotten, it’s among the most easily anthropomorphized of natural phenomena. And it’s ubiquitous. Everything on the surface of the earth is subject to it. Indeed, the atmosphere is larger than the planet itself. Is it any wonder that God has always been conceptualized as in the sky? The quality of the mercy of the sky, we might say, is strained.
Danger comes from the earth below us, the world around us, and the realm above. Like our ancient ancestors staring wonderingly into the sky, it is the last of these that’s most to be feared. The wind can’t been seen, but it can be felt. It cuts us with icy chills, drenches us with dismal rain, even flings us violently about when its anger compresses it into a tight whirl. We can’t control it. Unlike other predators it requires neither sleep to refresh nor light to see. Its rage is blind and it takes no human goodness or evil into account. After a great windstorm, the calm indeed feels like a mercy. Elijah on Mount Sinai stood before a mighty wind, tearing the land apart. It was the still, small voice, however, that captures his imagination. There’s a calm before the storm, but it is the stillness in its wake that most feels like the mercy of the sky.
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Tagged Elijah, Nor'easter, science and religion, The Mercy of the Sky, used books, Weather, Weathering the Psalms
Now that my book has been sent off to the publisher, I’m working on the next project. This one has me delving back into the Greek of the New Testament. It may be, some would say, that I’m no longer an expert in such things. Coming to Koiné Greek, however, after lingering among languages like Ugaritic and Akkadian, feels like coming home. It’s Indo-European, after all. One of the books I’ve come back to is 2 Peter. This is a curiosity among the canonical books. All but the most conservatively predisposed of scholars note that this little letter didn’t actually come from the Peter. The idea of using someone famous as a literary pseudonym was a well known and widely accepted practice in ancient times. In fact, the prefix “Pseudo-“ on classical writers is so common that I feel just a little self-conscious. Nevertheless, 2 Peter contains fascinating ideas.
The Bible was influenced, of course, by many outside sources. One of those sources was Zoroastrianism, the religion of ancient Persia. This came to mind because 2 Peter is the only book in the Bible that describes the end of the world as burning and melting. These ideas are tied to the purifying fire of Zoroastrianism. In that religion an evil deity, Angra Mainyu, corrupted this world. Fire, in Zoroastrian thought, is holy. At the end of time, when the blessed ascend to a heavenly mountain, a river of fire will pour down, burning and purifying the polluted earth left behind. The idea is powerful and evocative, and obviously some early Christian writers cottoned onto it. Including 2 Peter.
The idea, in the Bible, stands isolated in this one single book. The real concern of the epistle is false prophets, though. Still, the worldly should take note. The universe in biblical times consisted only of this relatively flat planet—which wasn’t even a planet then—with a starry dome overhead and a fiery Hell beneath. Ironically, 2 Peter’s end is similar to that predicted by modern astronomers. A star the size our sun will likely bloom out into a red giant, parboiling the earth in its death throes. Seems the Zoroastrians, and Peter, may have been correct after all. The thing is they both had an escape hatch that will only come with interplanetary migration, according to science. But then, all of this assumes there will be a world left after the Trump administration. And speaking of false prophets, I wonder what 2 Peter would’ve had to say about that?