In a local mall over the weekend where Christmas decorations were being uncrated, I felt cheated.Now I’m not naive enough to suppose retailers can get by without the black season around Christmas, but as a writer of books Halloween themed I felt as if my thunder were stolen.The normal person, I suspect, thinks of scary things only about this time of year.Monsters and horror films are on people’s minds in fall, even though a good horror flick will make a few bucks even in spring or summer.Halloween has a very small window of appeal, however, followed on closely, as it is, by Thanksgiving and Christmas.Why can’t we give Halloween its due?
My wife pointed out that Halloween is a big retail event.Indeed it is.I started noticing Halloween paraphernalia on the shelves fairly early in August.I know that even without capitalistic prompting I start to sense the season then.It’s in the air.Certain early August mornings you can smell a faint whiff of autumn on a breeze slightly cooler than expected.The first leaves start to change and fall before September.It will be another couple of months before the season makes itself felt in full force, but the early hints are there.A believer in delayed gratification, I hold back.Idon’t buy, but I absorb.The melancholy grows through September until as the calendar tells me it is now officially October I can begin to exhale.This is the time when those of us who are horror misfits can seem somewhat normal.I walk into a store and “Ho, ho, ho!”The joke’s on me.
Autumn already slips by too quickly.Every year before I know it the ephemeral beauty of changing leaves is gone and the subtle chill in the air turns frigid.Damp leaves are raked up to make room for snow.The swiftness of this season is perhaps one reason so many people value it.Summer can stretch long with its uncomfortably warm days and winter can linger for nearly half the year with its opposite feel.Halloween is a holiday that intentionally falls in the midst of transition.That transition has been commercialized, however, into buying seasons.Only halfway through October the price of Halloween goods drops to sale rates.Corporate offices are chomping for Christmas cash.What I really need is a walk through the fallen leaves and a few untrammeled moments to consider where we are rather than what we might earn.
Yellow and orange leaves on a damp pavement.A sky claustrophobically occluded with gray clouds.A decided chill in the air.All you have to do is add a few pumpkins and the feeling of October is complete.I don’t know why this particular image of the change of seasons grips me the way it does.As a homeowner I don’t want to turn the heat on too soon because the gas bills will jet up and will stay that way for seven or eight months.I get depressed when skys are cloudy for days at a time.Around here the leaves have only just begun to change.In other words, there’s a decided difference between the way I imagine October and the way that it feels on the ground.In my imagination there are Ray Bradbury titles, The October Country, The Autumn People, but here in the physical world I shiver and add another layer.
Over the past several weeks I’ve been struggling to figure out why horror appeals to me.It seems to be the Poe-esque mood rather than any startles or gore.The sense of mystery that hangs in the air when you simply don’t know what to expect.Will it be a warm, summer-like day or will it be rainy and raw, a day when you wouldn’t venture outside without the necessity to do so?October is like that.It is changeable.Beginning in late September it is dark longer than it is light and for much of the rest of the year I will go to bed when it’s dark outside.It’s always still dark when I awake.Is it any wonder that October has its hooks in me?
Short stories, of which I’ve had about twenty published, seem to be the best way to capture this mood.You see, it isn’t a sustained feeling.It’s piecemeal like that extra quilt you throw on your bed at night.The urge to hibernate creeps in, but capitalism doesn’t allow for that.October is an artist, and I’m just the guy wandering the galley, pausing before each painting.This feeling only comes after summer, and it is fleeting.In November the leaves will be down and the cold will settle in quite earnestly.The candles we lit for Halloween will be our guide-lights to those we hold out to Christmas when the dayglow will begin to return at an hour that reminds us change is the only thing that’s permanent.And in this there’s a profound hope.
One of the many trails that wend their way through Ithaca is the Art Trail.(The town finds waypoints on the wine and beer trails of the southern tier as well, but we were looking for visual art.)In early October several artists open their studios—these are personal places—to the tourists passing through.Those of us on the trail are seeking inspiration in human expression.I’ve neglected my own art for many years.While other guys my age are retiring and expressing their boredom, I struggle to find enough time to write, dreaming of the day when I can again take up my pencils and brushes.Being in so many studios over the weekend jump-started something in me.Humans are at their most god-like when they create.
Seeing artists in context is revealing.They don’t worry too much about convention.I found myself hanging toward the back of our little group.There was so much of others’ souls on display here.While some were young, a fair number were older than me.Perhaps retired from a novocaine job that dulled many days until enough years had passed and the need to let the art out escaped.If felt like visiting a small farm where the true independent, liberal spirit of this country once resided.These were farmers with paint brushes rather than shotguns and Trump bumperstickers.Free thinkers, not Fox thinkers.Under a sky October blue after two days of rain and gray, this was a mosaic of autumn.Art is a muse.I think of my neglected brushes and dried out paints, tucked away in the attic.
Modern art sometimes feels like someone slapped a frame around something random, but in talking with the creator something different emerges.Something that doesn’t feel like plastic.Something that defies words.Like poems sometimes break conventional lines, art refuses to be confined.Some of these studios used to be living rooms.Houses converted and dedicated to creativity.Why is this so difficult to accomplish in my own life?How has the time come to be consumed with work, even when the commute has been effaced?I suppose I’ve been using words to express myself—this blog is certainly an example of that.It is, however, a mere fraction of visual ideas awaiting release.I don’t know if I could ever open my studio to strangers.Art trails are labyrinths, and once you’ve entered that maze, it will take some time to reemerge.And when I do I know I will have been transformed.
Now that it’s October, it’s officially okay to be scared.Determined to fight my fright of hubris, I make brave to mention that I have two appearances scheduled for the first ever Easton Book Festival, coming up from the 25th to the 27th.The Festival has turned into quite an event, with some 200 writers taking part.I got involved by being in the right place at the right time, for a change.Authors are being brought in from as far as New York City, Vermont, and Massachusetts. I know from experience that even Manhattan is a trek.I contacted the organizers back in the summer since I have an autumn book that came out in late December last year.For the festival I’ll be involved in a panel discussion “Poets as Prophets—Merging Art and Religion” on Saturday, and a presentation on Holy Horror on Sunday.
Like many people who write, I’m shy and not naturally good at promoting myself.The other day while out for a walk my wife and I were run by by a group of shirtless high school guys, presumably on the track team.It felt like the gallimimus scene from Jurassic Park—we’re smaller folks, and these confident, athletic sorts were not.It felt like an object lesson to me.Some of us are born with genetic dispositions to grow large and to feel confident.Others not so much.When we watched the caber toss at Celtic Fest last weekend, the contestants were all well over six feet tall, which I suppose makes sense if a caber is in the cards for you.As they showboated for the crowd, I knew a small display with my book was just up the hill in the Moravian Book Shop. Like me, in the shadows of the shelf above.
Perhaps my only regret about the Easton Book Festival is that I don’t have a fictional novel to present.Well, I do, but it isn’t published.Lately I’ve been exploring that wall of separation between fiction and non.In the kinds of books I read in the fall, the wall is more of a hurricane fence.And it’s only about waist high at that.Holy Horror isn’t an academic book, it just plays one on the market.If it were a standard academic title I wouldn’t have put it forward for the Easton Book Festival; people come to such events to be entertained as well as to learn.This one will encompass pretty much all of downtown Easton for the weekend.And that weekend is just before Halloween, when the wall between worlds is especially thin.
Holy Horror, it looks like, has been delayed until January.That doesn’t mean that I have to wait to find some relief in the escape to film.Over the weekend my wife surprised me by being willing to watch The Exorcist with me.As we settled in to see it, a few things occurred to me—watching horror with someone else isn’t nearly as frightening as watching it alone.I know this from experience, and it seems that it has something to do with the willing suspension of disbelief.It’s harder to do when someone is with you.Left to one’s own devices, it’s possible to believe what you’re watching, even if intellectually you know that it is merely a movie.That tells us something about the way brains are wired.
I object to the word “wired,” really.As organic beings, we are not computers.What invented consciousness would watch a scary movie for pleasure?What is the rationale for it?It was a gray and rainy Saturday evening in late October.In human experience that may be all that it takes.Seeing orange and black in the stores sets a mood that computers, I strongly suspect, simply can’t feel.They lack the human experience of childhood trick-or-treating, or throwing on another layer as the days grow chillier, or watching the leaves turn and slowly drift down from weary trees.No, these aren’t wired experiences—they’re very organic ones, and often those that mean something even to adults as the seasons wend their way through the calendar.
The author waiting for proofs is rather like an expectant parent.Well, that analogy’s not quite right either, but you get the point.I know the book is coming.It was accepted and submitted long ago.The publication process, however, is more complex than most people might assume.In fact, in the publishing industry it is often the main role of the editorial assistant to assure that manuscripts make it through all of the necessary hoops to move from finished manuscript to printed book.Johannes Gutenberg likely had a simpler process worked out, although, in the early days of book-buying you could purchase the pages and have them bound by your choice of bindery.Now cover and content are glued or stitched together in what one hopes is a seamless way.Still, that stitching can’t help but to recall Frankenstein’s monster.It is, however, another gray, rainy day in October.It’s just a shame my computer can’t share the experience with me.
Blood and vampires go together like October and, well, vampires.Although I don’t understand manga, I do know it’s extremely popular, and a friend has been lending me the volumes of Hellsing by Kouta Hirano.In the past couple of weeks I’ve read numbers 4 and 5.Hellsing sets up a world where the Catholic church destroys vampires, as does the English, Protestant organization Hellsing Organization.The latter, however, has as its secret weapon the vampire Alucard who, in nearly every number, gets dismembered in some bloody way before pulling himself back together to overcome the enemy.In the latest issues I’ve read the Catholics and Protestants have to cooperate against the threat of neo-Nazis (and this was before Trump was elected), who also employ werewolves.(It’s October, remember.)
Having been pondering the vampires of Maine, I decided to read the next in my own generation’s vampire hero, Barnabas Collins.I’ve been reading the Dark Shadows series by Marilyn Ross to try to find a lost piece of my childhood.There was a scene in one of these poorly written Gothic novels that made a strong impression on me that I finally re-encountered in Barnabas, Quentin and the Nightmare Assassin.Interestingly, in this installment Barnabas, the gentleman vampire, is cured of his curse while traveling back in time with Carolyn Stoddard.The story doesn’t explain how some of the characters from the twentieth century appear a hundred years earlier, but it does bring an early encounter of the vampire against the werewolf—an idea monster fans know from its many iterations such as Hellsing or, famously, Underworld.
You might think vampires and werewolves would get along.In both the Dark Shadows and Hellsing universes the personalities of both come through clearly.Both monsters have deep origins in folklore and people have believed in them since ancient times.Just because they’re not human, however, is no reason to suppose they’ll get along with each other.As soon as Universal discovered that monsters translated well to film the idea began to develop that monster versus monster would be a great spectacle.We had vampires and werewolves clashing on cheap budgets with fog machines.A new orthodoxy was created that the undead just don’t get along.It’s a idea that continued into the relatively bloodless Dark Shadows series, and on into the violent and gleefully bespattered Hellsing.And since it’s October nobody should be surprised.
Here it is October and I have hardly written about monsters.Apart from the US government, that is.I suspect that I could use a little escapism right about now, and most of the boxes are unpacked from the move.Perhaps it’s time to watch a little horror and feel better about the world.Monsters, you see, crop up in the most unexpected places.Yes, in October we expect them to be crouching in dark corners and in dismal swamps as the light begins to fail.Yet the trees are still mostly green around here and I think I might be in need of some new material.As with most people my age, I get lost on the internet—someone needs to offer a roadmap to it.Preferably on paper.
I admit being stuck in the past.As any music therapist will tell you, a person’s musical tastes often reflect the sounds of their youth, and some of us believe that rock hit its high point in the 1980s.My work doesn’t lend itself to background music, so I seldom listen to the radio, and I wouldn’t even know what station to try to hear contemporary offerings.Fortunately I know some people half my age who find their tunes on the internet, and I was recently introduced to Panic! At the Disco via YouTube.I’m old enough to remember when music videos first appeared, although I never saw them.We lived in a small town and, besides, we couldn’t afford cable.Kids at school, however, talked about MTV and other places—there was no world-wide web then, kids!—that they had seen the latest, coolest video that I could only imagine.When my contemporary young friends showed me “LA Devotee” by Panic! I was stunned.
If you haven’t seen it, just look up the official video on YouTube.You’ve got the whole internet at your fingertips!While the lyrics seem innocent enough—young person wants to make it big and so imitates the Los Angeles lifestyle—the video is horror show.Literally.Borrowing from M. Night Shyamalan the opening sequence is a cross between The Village and Signs.Then it becomes a torture chamber for a young boy (from Stranger Things, no less, a show I binge-watched when it came out on DVD).And Satanism.Yes, taking on the LA lifestyle is compared to selling your soul to the Devil.The stunning visuals kept me clicking the replay button.Even as I felt my age, I also felt October growing.And I was glad to see the monsters are still there.Too bad we can’t banish them from DC, however.